About Me
I’m in my late 40s and live in Canada. I struggle with depression, hoarding, binge eating, insomnia, OCD, obesity and diabetes. Wow, that’s quite a list … but I’m learning that I’m more than all those labels. I’m me. I think I’m just beginning to learn what that means. So here I am blogging about my life, my changes, my struggles and my personal growth.
Every day’s a bit of a struggle but since re-starting this blog in April 2009 I’ve made a lot of changes. One of the changes is my new avatar. I like it because it’s more reflective of who I am and it helps to personalize my blog. I want this place to be more like an online journal which is why I added these pages, My Photos, Makes Me Feel Good, and My Doodles – where you’ll find the doodle that my avatar comes from (yes I drew it, and um … yeah it is somewhat reflective of me … minus the blue hair).
This was my old avatar. It really did reflect how I felt almost every day back when I started this blog in March 2008. It was how I felt pretty much every day for over a year. A very long and very difficult year.
I chose the name BlueFunk because the FreeDictionary defines it as, “A mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity.” That pretty much defined me back then.
I still have my moments of feeling that way, but more and more I’m feeling better and less despondent. I’m finding that writing on this blog is propelling me forward. I certainly take steps backwards once in a while, but for the most part I’m moving forward and up for the fight this time around.
bleedingperfection said,
March 12, 2008 at 12:41 pm
You went on my blog and left me a comment, and I just wanted to thank you for your support and say that the road goes both ways, and if you ever want to to talk I’m here. You seem to have a lot of labels and names being thrown at you, and I know how hard that can be to deal with. You feel like they are taking away your personality and replacing you with sub- categories.
Well I don’t know if that’s how you feel, but that’s my take on it. Just wanted to say that you seem to have a lot on your plate at the moment, and if you ever want to talk about it, I’d love to chat.
Charlotte x
newfidadian said,
July 12, 2009 at 1:22 pm
I found your blog today when trying to get motivated to clean my apt. and couldn’t help but notice how similar we are when it comes to how you feel about hoarding, depression, etc. I don’t know if you’ve found this site already, but one site that I’ve found helpful and that is one of the few sites that seems to understand our way of thinking (well, mine anyway) and how overwhelming clutter can be is:
http://www.flylady.net/
Granted, I still struggle with clutter and mild depression, but just wanted to pass it along. Good luck! You can do it!
savanahgreen said,
August 23, 2009 at 12:38 am
Hey there! Funny how people who have never met may have so much more in common than they’d ever realize by bumping into each other on the street. I thoroughly enjoy your blog and am in a similar mental house cleaning process as you. I just started my blog a few days ago due to the need to face the childhood issues that can hold you back will into the later years of your life….thus limiting your potential. I look forward to reading more of your posts!
Cheers, SG