MyBlueFunk

Still Around … Still Moving Forward

January 5, 2012 at 12:32 am (anxiety, compulsive overeating, eating disorders, feeling better, financial probs, health, hoarding)

Can’t believe how long it’s been since I dropped by here.  I thought about this blog today and thought I’d come by and delete it, but it looks like people continue to visit, maybe it was only 9 people last month, but based on the key-word searches, it looks like maybe some like-minded people are visiting.  I hope you find some of what I’ve included here to be helpful, thoughtful, or motivating.

Life for me continues to motor along.  No real set-backs, and more baby-steps forward.

I still haven’t tackled my kitchen … lol.  Now that I think about it that means I haven’t done a thing in there since April last year.  Well, I mean I clean the counter, sink, floor & fridge fairly regularly … but haven’t painted or sorted out the cupboards.

Then there’s the bedroom.  I have tidied it up a bit but for the most part I still sleep in the livingroom, which I keep tidy on a regular basis.  Wish I could say the same about the bathroom and laundry.  Those are 2 areas I really need to focus on, and soon.

More importantly, the hoarding is under control.  No more bringing things into the apartment.  And I throw things out on a regular basis.  Every once in a while I notice a few things piling up, and I get an anxious feeling about having to throw it out, but I do throw it out.  No more keeping the bags of garbage in my living space.  That’s a huge thing for me.  But it’s weird, because sometimes I miss all the layers of fake protection.  But … I know I’m better for it without having it around.

It’s tough!  And such a weird compulsion that I still never talk about it with anyone out here in my real life.  I can only do that here.

It’s good I still have this blog.  It’s like a timeline of my movement forward in life.  And right now I can see I’m out of the darkest part.  It’s still a bit foggy at times, but there is some light.

The job and money situation is finally calmed down.  I’m being better about saving and the new job is less stressful and things are really good.

Then there’s the compulsive over-eating.  Hmm…that’s still a huge struggle.  I’m at the point now where I’m more aware of my feelings when I’m doing it, but it’s such a strong compulsion it’s been hard to change.

But … a new year, new opportunities.