Because I’m Not Capable
So now everyone’s trying to step in and take over my life because apparently I’m not capable of making decisions on my own. I had decided to get my car repaired but according to those all around me that’s the wrong decision and now everyone is trying to find a way to save me.
I know I probably sound like I’m never happy. Not happy when people don’t help me and not happy when they do.
But the reality is support doesn’t mean taking over and treating me like I’m the idiot child who isn’t capable of anything.
I can’t remember the last time I’ve cried so much. It’s just so upsetting and I don’t know what to do.
The thought of everything is getting me really panicked. The idea that I won’t have a car and all that that entails makes me panic. I went 10 years slugging around on busses – I just can’t bear the thought of that happening to me now at my age.
melind4 said,
July 3, 2009 at 12:41 pm
Hi Bluefunk,
I have trouble accepting help from people sometimes too. It can be hard for me to tell who has good intentions, and who has ulterior motives. It’s hard for me to stand up for myself sometimes, especially around my family. I feel like they treat me like the “idiot child” a lot, and that’s brought me a lot of tears lately.
Whatever you choose for your car — good luck. I’m sure you’ll make the right decision.
mybluefunk said,
July 3, 2009 at 9:07 pm
Thanks for your comments – you’re so right about accepting help, it’s so hard. I stress myself out because I let my past mess with my mind here in the present. So I really appreciate what you’re saying. Thanks
Sorry you’re also feeling stress right now – I’m starting to think that sometimes we’re all on the same crazy cycle because it seems when I’m really at the limit I notice a lot of others are too – like it’s in the air or something.